evenflow...

So we talked about her endevour last night, and she got a response. Seems like all hands point toward go. Even though he has no idea who the hell she is, for some reason i have all but no doubts she'll make it. I have these bittersweet feelings running through my head about it though, i know she wants it so bad, and i want her to succeed more than anything, but on the other hand, i hardly get to talk to her now, her to bed and up early each day. It seems horrible, but if she
didn't make it, then i would almost be happy. *Shrugs* I realize thats selfish, and my desire for her to succeed most definately outweighs it, but that feeling is certainly there.

Y: Heh
X: Yes?
X: i've been looking for someone to recipricate my affection, and now that its there, i don't want it.

As for now, i'm real curious how this will turn out. Immediate v/s delayed gratification. Physical v/s Mental. Returned v/s The Possibility. Its so there, yet i won't take it, again i'll wait. again i'll watch and be patient. It honestly makes me laugh, and if i get a HS repeat, i'll hang myself.

Now i just gotta muster the strength to stop the slow moving ball of the now and continue to pray that the future continues to move.

Funny, it was said 2 days ago, and now it comes up in my head, in the middle of a movie...

X: ...waiting for the princess?
Y: ...always.